Nicky

    
we thought of you today 
But that is nothing new
We thought of you yesterday
and will tomorrow too.
       
We think of you in silence
and make no outward show
For what it meant to lose you
only those who loved you know.
      
Remembering you Nicky is easy
we do it every day
It is the heartache of losing you
That will never go away.
we will always love you son.
                 
                                                                                       
            
          No words can describe the pain of losing your child.                       
No child should ever die before their parents.

Thank you for visiting Nicky's site.
Please ........light a candle ,or pay a tribute
let nicky's family know that you made a visit,
whoever you are? we bless you for visiting Nicky's site.
                          many thanks.

                                                    
                                                    
This web site was made to celebrate the life of our only and much loved son.
Nicky died from a rare disorder called an Arteriovenous Malformation or for short An AVM.
1 in100,000, people are affected by this rare condition
It can strike from Birth onwards and many are left with devasting life changing affects.
Nicky was one of those that could not be saved.
Nicky never knew he had this condition nor did we.
Nicky was loved is loved and will be loved for eternity.
He was a truly unique and a very special human being.
Life without him here on Earth will never be the same.
Like the brightest star in the sky this will be our reminder of nicky sunshine on sunny days laughter,  Fun and music .
He was and is so precious to us that his memory will live on forever .
Nicky will be with us forever locked in our memories and hearts.

  Unless you have lost a child you will never know

  how bad the hurt is that we feel.

Our lives have changed forever .

It is not something you learn to live with.

you just live.!!

Watching your child die is unbearable like having your heart ripped out .

But what is worse, not been able to stop it.......

You see that picture lives with you for the rest of your life.

No amount of comfort ,love, family ,money, can ever compensate .

Now one of ours has gone, never ever to return

Will we ever come to terms with this ....

I doubt we ever will, i will always wish to have my son back.

And i will always talk about him .

You see we loved him and always will.

God bless you Nicky now and always.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Nicky with his mum & Dad.

above with his sister's.

Nicky with his truelove his wife and one of his children.
                                         
Missed beyond belief , no words can express
the pain of losing you.
you will never be forgotton we will not allow that.
your memory lives on.
your love will always shine from the sky
every time we see a star or a bird or butterfly or Bee
we think of you.
sleep tight i know we will all meet again on that special day and what a day that will be .
you were the best and the most unique.
To us the worlds greatest.


                 
                              
  

nicky always remembered

 
               
         Nicky will always be remembered.
         Gone from this Earth to reside in Heaven
                       But Never forgotton.  
                          


                          

 
A bright everlasting candle for you Nicky.
Always burning bright in your memory.                                          
                            
         

St Peters & St pauls where Nicky had his church service for his funeral.

A heart of flowers from Ellie your wife.

Nicky a day at your grave side
looks like you were with us, just look at the sunshine beaming all around us.
Dad and your youngest Sister Emma and Hayley & Bobby all visiting you.
 God how they all love and miss you.xxxxx



 

 
The Dove  above is like the one we had released over your coffin .
A symbol of your spirit being released into Heaven.
Now you are free no pain or suffering.

How we remember those days of you as a teenager .
Nicky was always mucking about and laughing and sending us all up the pole never a dull moment.
you were such a kind son very caring .
It is hard to remember all the bad things as looking back they were all normal things that Kid's do whilst they grow.
All those memories are locked in your families hearts.
You were the best wind up merchant ever.
how we all miss that.
Below is one of the poems that we thought would help us in our greif and loss of our most precious son.
Read the words ................ Every day we encounter something that reminds us of you Nicky you will always be remembered.

   For you Nicky.      



 To the living, i'am gone,
To the sorrowful, i will never return,
To the angry, i was cheated,
but to the happy i am at peace.
And to the faithfull i have never left.
I can not speak but i can listen,
I can not be seen but i can be heard,
So as you stand upon the shore
Gazing at the sea
Remember me.
As you look at all the trees.
Remember me.
Remember me in your hearts,
In your thoughts
And the memories of all the times we loved.
The times we cried.
And the times we laughed.
for if you always think of me ,
i will never have gone.
This poem was on Nicky's mass card. 
Author unknown. 

      
    Memories xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Everyone of your family Misses you .
                                                 Loved forever.xoxoxoxoxoxox
 

   Nicky you Are    


 
THING'S NICKY LIKED THE MOST

Mum and dad and his sister's.
Ellie
Jessie 
Jeorga 
Jasmine.
All his relatives and cousin's.
His inlaw's and there family.
Spending time with family.
Being with his dad and having boy's talk.
Going for drives in his car with Ellie and the children
Brighton and the sea
His bed he loved a lie in when possible
Pasta dishes
Cups of Tea 
Biscuits
Chocalate
Hot chocalate drink.
roast dinner's 
Sausage rolls and all party foods
Mcdonalds
pie and mash and mushy pea's
curry indian and chinese
kebab's
Trainers.
Riding his Bike
Walking
His computer
Anything that needed taking apart and mending
Music all sorts,  easy listening to garage and rapping
Grew up with UB40 Music, this was the first Album bought for him by his Auntie Maxine And Uncle john when he was about 10, very cool in those days.
 Base ball Caps. liked one's with either Nike or Rebok.
Cars.
flowers
winding every body up in a nice way 
laughing and mucking about.
singing in the studio with Jermaine.
His mobile phones.
Talking to his sister's
Movies the best one with his mum was E T.many a christmas we were both crying for that strange alien creature.
T.V.                                             

The T.V.Show the Simpson's.
Dancing, Nicky had some great moves.
Just acting crazy and having a good time.
Rebok and nike was his best logo's he liked.
being kind to others.
Nicky loved dog's 
Brandy his small little pet dog went everywhere with him.
Watching a movie
Play station .

SOME INTERESTING FACT'S ABOUT NICKY.

Nicky went to the same school as the British prime minister John Major.
One of Nicky's Teacher's became the Lord mayer of Epsom and Ewell.
Nicky also lived in  Epsom and Ewell with his parent's.Famed for the Epsom darby (horse racing)
Nicky lived the major part of his life in Wimbledon SW.19
where the  Lawn tennis is played.
And also the home town of the famous song the wimbledon wombles.
Nicky spent many a time with his parent's and sister's on wimbledon common.
Nicky was a great swimmer having gained his life saving certificate.
Nicky was in the royal logistic's chore of the British Army the screaming Eagles.
He was a fully skilled driver and could drive any vechile and was highly trained including the carrying of high explosive materiels.
He was based at colchester in Essex .
Nicky did not like drinking, however he did try on a few occassions  and he was really funny when drunk.
And believe us this was rare.
Nicky was the proudest dad in the world when his daughter's were born.
He loved his wife Ellie and being a family man.
He liked going at times to church with his brother in law Ryan.
Nicky would read the Bible
Nicky believed in God
Nicky believed in Family.
Nicky loved to have a chat
Nicky was good with young people
He got on with nearly everyone.
Nicky had a tattoo on his back by his shoulder of a small Rat.
His nick name was Ratty, he was very proud of that name as it was a linked to his surname and was held with affection.
This was his only Tatoo.
Nicky liked his hair.
Whoever met Nicky they would never forget him he was well liked.
Nicky would always help any one out ,he was a caring and a kind individual.
Nicky loved Animals mostly Dog's.
Nicky had a lovely Smile.
Nicky also had Very long eyelashes.
As parents we were blessed to have been picked
as Nickys mum & Dad.
God we miss verything about you.
Greif does not have a time limit
It will never go away
The living just have to cope and live 
which is hard............   

 
                                             
              




 Nicky would of laughed at this.